grieving for the addict

Lamentations 3:19
The thought of my suffering and homelessness
is bitter beyond words.
I will never forget this awful time,
as I grieve over my loss.

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something that an addict grieves over
is their lifestyle.
its hard to comprehend why someone would
grieve being homeless and
the chaotic life that is barely being survived by the addict.

every other time ive tried getting sober,
it was with the worlds so-called 'help'
and it left me empty...
everytime.

the endless therapy
and medication.

but it is true, that the addict feels a loss
when the drug/lifestlye is absent.
its a deep sense of hollow-ness
and sadness.

like a child lost in the grocery store.

grieving for normal people-
would be to be sad if a loved one died.
but for the addict,
there is much more to be grieved.

the chasing
the needles
the hustle
the purchasing
the running from cops
the being arrested...
fingerprinted
prostituting
blacking out
lying
stealing
SCREAMING...
the drug dealers wanting your stolen money and
your soul

the doctors telling you they dont know how u came out of this one
alive... except that it could only be a
miracle.

the sickness is that we are addicted to this lifestyle.
the drug is but a symptom.

lamentation is a song, poem, or piece of music expressing grief, regret, or mourning.