detachment

there are times when i still detach from reality.
i remember doing it all the time when i was in my sickness, mentally and physically.

in these times it feels as though i have no arms or legs... like i have no body.
my mind just goes into this way of thinking without warning.

when i am 'detached' i find myself searching more diligently then usual.
i ask questions like, 'what is this body that i am in?  what is the purpose of this?  how did i become formed into this world?  why do i feel like there is so much more to life than what i already know?

the difference between this state of mind, and the state of mind from when i was using and diseased; is that this state of mind, the mind i have now, seeks out all truth.  i am simply driven to unveil mysteries.  and yes, at times it is exhausting.  but satisfying when a mystery is solved!

ACTS 17:26-28
From one man he made all the nations, that they should inhabit the whole earth; and he marked out their appointed times in history and the boundaries of their lands.

God did this so that they would seek him and perhaps reach out for him and find him, though he is not far from any one of us. ‘For in him we live and move and have our being.’
'As some of your own poets have said, ‘We are his offspring.’

this Scripture says a lot to me.  through Jesus Christ- the nations were made... that we (His offspring) should inhabit the earth.  we have appointed times.  we have appointed times!  and it was marked out!  we are set apart, decided upon, and chosen to live right now... in this world right now.  the way we think- the way we take action, the way we interact with one another- the way we inhabit the earth... decided upon.

but there is a reason for it!  that we would seek GOD.  that we would ask questions... that we would have a holy discontentment about our state of being and be pushed to search for the truth.  for it is ONLY the truth that sets us free. hallelujah.

in Him- in Christ- we live, move, and have our being.  i feel safe with that.  with knowing that.  no matter how weird my mind can get sometimes- i am IN HIM.  amen.