ugh... woke up with the resin of a filthy dream dripping inside my mind.
i was pregnant. i was contemplating abortion. i was fighting myself, and wanted to keep the baby. people around me were all gross. i was surrounded by men from the past. there was sex and torment.
this wouldnt have hit me so deep today, if i hadnt had an abortion ten years ago- when i was 17.
in my dream, i was frantic... thoughts racing of how i was going to support the baby, and there was no father. it was just me and a bunch of sex-driven men who drove me around in cars, and pulled me in different directions.
it was just me surviving the evil that was impregnated in my soul.
it has been a shadow over me all day... gloomy gross past memories...
and the sky is gray today, and has been overcast... even the weather agrees.