this is a diary entry of when i was living at walter hoving home
im so angry with God,
theres nothing more frustrating than an unanswered prayer.
i wana know why i feel like a robot.
i want to cry SO bad!
and i feel stagnant, stuck and so bad.
i feel like im gona pop because my clothes are all too small.
i dont know if im ever gona get better.
my soul aches and im lost.
im drowning and im falling fast.
my heart is broken and i hurt.
i hurt so bad and i want God to make it stop.
why wont God answer me this time?
why wont he tell me what to do?
im so frustrated and mad.
im freakin angry.
i want to understand so much- actually everything and i know
im not supposed to, but it makes me mad.
so much im sad and in turmoil about...
like why i am so stupid.
i cant do anything right.