you know when you feel like you cant go on anymore?
thats how i feel lately
im really scared that me being off of drugs and pysch meds it just a dream
its too good to be true
can i really stay away from that life forever?
all i have to do is ask God for help? theres no stipulations or conditions to Gods love?
ive had to be strong for so long that i feel so uncomfortable being weak... but when i am weak then i am strong.
im scared that the next time i use will be my last and my counselor used to say that to me all the time- she'd say, "mariah, you use to die, not to get high."
and she's right.
i struggle so deeply with self-hate i hate myself because im never good enough, i can never do anything good enough and i always feel like people dont understand me because i cant make sense when i try to explain my feelings.
two thousand twelve reality
2 Corinthians 5:17
Therefore, if anyone is in Christ, the new creation has come: The old has gone, the new is here!