Thursday, August 5, 2010

taunted again

i had another nightmare last night, and i wont go into detail,
because it was just perverted.
during the day, my dreams come to rememberance every once and a while.
so i thought id write about how i deal with it.
sometimes i have difficulty accepting that dreams are just dreams
and that it doesnt mean thats how i really feel, or thats what i am.

it just means its a dream.

dreams come from different sources...
our own twisted minds,
the enemy,
the Holy Spirit,
and ones i call- random nonsense.

the one i had last night was from demons.
and they can only get to me in dreams, because they know how strong i am
in the Lord.
they try to sway ur thoughts into perversion and lust.
good thing i learned how to discern.

i stay prayed up, because-
im saved! im sanctified! im Holy Ghost FILLED and im FIRE Baptized.
and i got JESUS by my side,

1 Peter 2:6
See, I lay a stone in Zion, a chosen and precious cornerstone, and the one who trusts
in him will never be put to shame.

all the dreams ive been having lately that torment me- i keep laying them on
Jesus and he takes them for me.
then he replaces those dreams with praising that comes out of my mouth to God.

and the shame thats in me when i wake up from a dream-like that one last night-
i realize that its just a feeling, and its not from God.

i shake it off.

Isaiah 52:2
Shake off your dust;
rise UP, sit enthroned, O Jerusalem,
Free Yourself from the chains on your neck,
O captive daughter of Zion.


  1. My dearest Mariah...
    You have been clean for one full year. You used for a decade. Time will heal much of the pain you are suffering in both the dream world and during wakeful hours. Please know that "this too will pass" and most people have unusual and fearful dreams. I love you more than life itself.

  2. I can relate so much to Mariah. And her life. I am also 29 . I am in a place right now in my life I never in a million years thought id be. I come from a long line of women of God. I feel the fight everyday in me. I read your moms comment and smiled. Because my mom says to me all the time "this to shall pass" I teard up reading those words. Please pray for me. As I will you.